Heart v/s Brain

I came across a line printed in the newspaper and it instantly caught my attention and made me think about it.. 

"The heart has reasons that reason does not understand."

In life, we are always battling inside. At every moment, there is an inner conflict going on between the brain and the heart. Between dreams and convention. Between reasoning and faith. We always have a choice to make, a risk to take. 

Our mind tells us to stay on the shore, keeping our feet on the ground. To just watch the beautiful scene, take in the beauty and walk along the water. A balanced life, with no fear, no risks. But somewhere deep down, our heart wants more. It pushes us, it challenges us. It tries to tell us that the risk that might break you is the one that will save. It knows that the real beauty of the sea in the touch of the water and exploring the hidden treasures which the water has secretly hidden for so long.

We somehow hold back, the fear of taking on the angry sea, too frightening. The fear of suffering, takes over the dreams, the curiosity to know more .We pretend to be happy and content, living the way everyone does.

When you follow your heart, the uncertainties of tomorrow instill fear. As a child, we don't really think about the future and that is why, when you see into a child's eyes, you see dreams, hopes and curiosity. Adulthood brings with it a wealth of experience and also a bag full of compromises. And more often than not, it's our dreams, our loved ones which are sacrificed. We claim to know more about the "Real World". About how you have to tell your heart to take a backseat, how the calls from your mother can wait, how the sky won't fall if you don't attend your daughter's play. By that time, we know the science behind most of the simple things in life, and we stop believing in miracles. Our freeflowing imagination as a child gets submerged beneath our desperate measures to find all the answers. 

And when we look back, at some point everyone does, the little voice of our heart still echoes deep down,

"What If?"

What if that day I had taken the plunge into the sea? What if I had taken the leap of faith, for once? Would my life be different? Would I be living my dream? Would I see my daughter running towards me? Would I be present beside my mother during her last days, rather than my office?

And by the time, we realize what we've done, it's too late.

So friends, go take the plunge. Follow your dreams. Listen to your heart. Believe in miracles, in love and in yourself.

Inspiring songs..

1. Fix you - Coldplay

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
COULD IT BE WORSE?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you. . <3

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JI-o25K6B-E

2. Let it Be - The Beatles

When I find myself in times of trouble, mother Mary comes to me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
And in my hour of darkness she is standing right in front of me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.

Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

And when the broken hearted people living in the world agree,
there will be an answer, let it be.
For though they may be parted there is still a chance that they will see,
there will be an answer. let it be.

Let it be, let it be, .....

And when the night is cloudy, there is still a light, that shines on me,
shine until tomorrow, let it be.
I wake up to the sound of music, mother Mary comes to me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.

Let it be, let it be, ..... 

3. The Scientist - Coldplay

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are

I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart

Tell me your secrets 
And ask me your questions
Oh, lets go back to the start

Running in circles
Coming up tails
Heads on a science apart.

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard

Oh, take me back to the start.

I was just guessing 
At numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart

Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart

Tell me you love me 
Come back and haunt me
Oh, and I rush to the start

Running in circles
Chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard

I'm going back to the start

we never change : coldplay

The Master Plan..

How many times in our lives have we questioned “why?”. “Why is this happening to me?”

“Why do I end up being hurt?”

“Why am I such a loser?”

“Why can’t he be mine?” “Why can’t people understand my feelings?”

With me, it was quite a number of times. Then I decided to do something extremely simple. I changed the "Why?" to "Why not?"

Tears? Why not? They will just make my vision clearer.

Heartbreaks? Why not? There will also be someone to mend it.

Failures, why not? They will just make the victory sweeter.

And all of a sudden, the misted veil over life, complications, began to fade away..revealing the beautiful light beneath it. The smug look on the face of life quickly changed into a grin. I smiled at life and it smiled back at me.

Life wasn't a play of mere blobs anymore.. it was a beautiful abstract painting. The pieces of the jigsaw puzzle started to fall into place and slowly, the picture made sense. Funnily enough, the "why not?"s provided many more answers than the "why?"s. The answers seemed to connect together and form a plan, life. I was a mere dot in the world, just like a twinkling star in the vast sky, but I was here for a reason . I had a purpose of existence. I was a part of the bigger plan called Humanity. I was here to follow my dreams, follow my heart, connect the dots and the lives of people. I wouldn't be born without my mother. My mother wouldn't be born without me. 

I am a daughter, a sister , a friend, a lover, an example, an identity, a being , a warrior, a twinkling star ; a part of the master plan.

Changes in life. .

There are times in life when I feel drained.. hollow.. with nothing left inside me .. with no strength to give more and expect nothing in return. When the faith inside me is shaken and stirred, and it takes a lot of courage to cling on to hope.. 

Life changes you.. in more ways than you can imagine.. Everyday is a new test, a new challenge and a new lesson. You meet new people, you get hurt, you fall down , you get up. 

You feel like you have nothing more left to give, 

You feel like there is nothing left to smile for.

You're afraid.. afraid that the past will repeat itself. Afraid of having the courage to risk everything and giving your everything again. Afraid of getting hurt, afraid of being the "loser" again. They say, the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. I couldn't agree more. 

Just moments before, I thought I will never ever be the same "give it everything what's life without risks?" person again. I felt I had lost her on the way. . somewhere behind a broken trust. I sat and just glanced at my reflection in the mirror.. It seemed like it wanted to convey something.. I closed my eyes and I heard it speak..

"Look at you. Haven't you changed?"

I was shocked, looked at it in utter disbelief.. 

"Who are you? Am I hallucinating?". I could feel the sweat dripping down my forehead.

"You know me. I'm the old you and you're the new me."

"Huh?"

"Cleanse your soul of regrets and hatred.. Just think with a mind free of the memories of the past and worries of the future." She simply said.

"But I can't go back to being who I was.. I don't want to give it everything for something I'm never gonna get.. I don't want to wait my whole life for people who always took me for granted.."

"Silly you. The past has gone.. You've to learn the lessons from it and let it go away.. Your life history makes you ready for the greater obstacles that are gonna come later on in your journey.. You can't keep running away from them.. The only to assassinate your fears, is to take them on, with belief and faith . "

"Will I be able to believe the same way again?"

"Belief.. I know you will. Not blind faith anymore, not unrealistic fantasies anymore. But a belief that life balances everything . There is a reason behind everything.. behind the rising of the sun, behind the humming of the bird. Everything has a plan. And if you close you eyes, you will miss out of the new opportunities, new joys , new plans . The only thing constant in life is change. We cannot avoid it. We can just take in the wisdom of the world and let our soul grow.. each day, each moment."

And with that, I smiled at my reflection, and felt a smile coming back at me in return. For the first time, I felt we were one. The old experiences and the new hopes. Go together hand in hand. Making me the person I am. Making life the way it is. 

:)

Ever since class 10th has started.. I've felt sort of lifeless. I've always been a school lover and never in my life, have I hated school. But in the last few days, it has become sort of monotonous.. with nothing to look forward to.. There has been work, work and more work. And when I look back, the last time I REALLY laughed my ass off was during class 8th.. It was THE best year of my life. Everyday was so much fun.. all the people that were there.. my group, my class. People I've lost touch with, people I miss.. a lot. It's never been the same without them. I'd do anything to have those days back. And yet, I sit here , writing this down, and I know, I cannot rewind time, as much as  I want to. 

Life was going in a direction I didn't want to.. There were people running, here, there, everyone after one thing or the other, half of them without even knowing why. I just wanted to take a remote, and pause it all. Just breathe for a moment. Just do what my heart wants me to do, for a day. Just take time out, sing, dance, write, draw and forget about the various assignments in school and just concentrate on the biggest assignment : Life. 

Happiness. . No , I will not go looking for it. Happiness.. it will come. It's been too long, it has to.

Happiness.. what is it? 

For me, it's the simple joy to see people smile. 

To see people cherish the beauty of life.

To see people never give up on hope.

I know, everything happens for a reason. I will go through this. I will be happy. I will never give up. I will fight, fight for my dream. Fight for my people. Fight for love. Fight for life.

A fight with only one weapon : Self belief. 

And I have a feeling, better days are just around the corner . And no, I will not let them go away.. :)