I don't know why you say goodbye..

I sit in front of my computer screen, staring at my friend's profile . Going through ALL our pictures and being in a state of not knowing whether to laugh or cry.. Funny things, memories. There is this book given by her on my last birthday which just caught my eye, and I think I dropped a tear as I read her message on the first page.. I hadn't read this book yet, but today I sit and read it. I don't know , it just makes me feel she is still here..It's hard, isn't it. To let someone go just when you begin to realize they mean the world to you.. I wonder if she is sitting somewhere, reading our messages and thinking about the exact same thing. Actually, I have a feeling she is. 
My mom is telling me how this is life, and well people come into our lives and they go. Some stay for a minute, others a lifetime. But we have to part with everyone.Yet it's hard.. Now that I think about the times spent with her, the times I should have been more affectionate, the times I shouldn't have taken her for granted, all I want to do is rewind the time.. And go back to our happy world. It's funny. Everything is just the same, and yet it's so different .. just because of one person. I'm writing this because each one of us has had an experience like this, or will surely have later. 
She may have gone, but the distance just seems to strengthen our friendship. I know I can't rewind the time, but I can surely start today and make a better future. 10 years later, maybe her face will fade away with time.. but her memories will always be locked up in my heart. The ever smiling face will bring me up when I'm feeling down and I'll carry on.. with old memories and new memories..The one I'm writing this for, I just want to say,I love you and you'll always be in my heart..:)